Why am I misunderstood? I feel alone?

I have no tips because I am miserable but you and I have a lot in common. You are lonely because like me you keep people out of your inner world as a means to protect it. You are like this because someone close to you hurt you and damaged your ability to trust long ago. A great quote I have here that I love-- if you follow you might find you make connections with people. "Finding something that brings you happiness, and sharing that happiness, is the only antidote to loneliness that I know."